Well, it's that time of year - the cold starts to envelope the countryside and as the warmth and humidity leaves it seems to take a bit of my fatigue with it. However the cold brings an increase of pain and spasticity but I do think I fare better with that than the fatigue. I just can't fight the overwhelming blah's - even with the new amantadine - it wakes up my mind but I still have to find the little extra something deep within myself to actually propel me out the door - with the provigel I didn't have to think so hard - that was more like the energizer bunny and I went and went and went until the batteries died for the day and then I started up fresh the next day with a new pill. But I can't afford the provigel and I CAN afford the amantadine - however the constipation it is giving me may make it unacceptable after all - but I'm just not sure if it IS the amantadine because my whole system seems to have slowed - I have a slight hug showing up now and again and my bowels have gotten tight and my bladder loose - so for the time being I am going to have to go against the medical communities steady advice and depend on laxatives because if I wait for my body I'll be in emergency for sure - or end up like Elvis Presley and no one should have to die that way!
As for my Little Melrose Life - this past week we harvested our first (and therefore limited) supply of honey from our backyard hive - it was as exciting as christmas morning - and we also learned that we will be the proud grandparents of a bouncing baby boy ETA 2/14/10 - that makes it a pretty exciting life as things go. I am so glad that I will get a baby to play with before I lose the strength to play with him, and I just hope I have enough energy to do all of the things I've been planning and dreaming about for the last 15 years since my own children stopped playing with me voluntarily LOL. The day they started to say "no" when I made fun and educational suggestions was a very sad day for this mom. But now I'll have a whole new set of minds because I'm hoping he will be just the beginning! If not the poor young lad will have to fill this grandma's expectations all by his little lonesome - what fun we will have ;o)
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