Family First & Fatigue

Last night was the first wednesday of the month and for me that means family first - we invite any and all family to our house for a pot luck dinner - I've been making fiberliscious bread and last night I added garden fresh chili, killer zuchini cake, my first batch of refrigerator pickles since we left the farmhouse, and chi-chi's corn bread. It was delicious! I sent the leftover loaf of bread home with my pregnant daughter-in-law to feed my new grandbaby. We had a couple of leakers - my husband is stranded someplace in Ohio waiting for a reload, my great uncle got stuck at the bank working on guardianship stuff and my father, well he's just a leaker - he figured since I had to run to town on Monday to get him a new cell phone and he treated me to the chinese buffet that he had already seen me this month I guess. Which was okay, we had a really nice visit. My mom beat me in a game of bean bag toss, my son harvested his hops plant, and we thoroughly enjoyed a low key visit. Today I'll sit and look at the dishes and by next week this time I'll find the energy to get the done. My fatigue has been rather high again and I am not happy about that, at all. Just when I feel ready to rejoin the world, take on something akin to a normal life, it sets back in. I should be used to this. It happens a few times a year. I feel better, I feel better long enough I start to set some wheels in motion, and by the time I get anything really started, the wheels grind to a slow stop. And then here I sit, feeling able to do not much more than crochet. I guess since we have a new baby coming there are worse things. But I was really excited about the prospect of trying to return to school, and I still might push myself a little harder to make this happen. We are poor enough this year that I'm sure I would get some assistance, and even if I only went part-time, if any of my credits from decades ago transfer then I might be able to add a bachelors degree to my personal resume - not that I'll probably ever use it - but I might - maybe GIFT15 will be the MS answer - and then I could go teach poor children in arizona or las vegas or even new orleans! someplace WARMER but not killer hot - because I know that heat makes my MS butt drag but cold makes my body hurt from head to toe and I'd rather take pep pills for a little oomph than have to fill my body with pain pills like I do now. Enough about that - don't have enough energy to waste it whining.