I'm retreating....

I feel my chair calling me and I am not ready to give up but just feel too damn tired to fight it. I hope I can manage just a couple more weeks of "life" before I have to give in because it doesn't seem quite as depressing if winter is in full swing and I have to sit and crochet in front of the TV but it is really depressing to have to watch the beautiful crisp fall weather from my living room window - today my left leg is bothering me and both of my shoulders, but I'm hoping the shoulders are just from overdoing it yesterday. After a terrible morning of the sleepy shit when I could not even keep my eyes open I was finally able to drag myself out of bed around noon (I'm bleeding like a stuck pig and that MAY have something to do with that) anyhow, once I got moving a bit I was overwhelmed by the animal hair and mess in my living room and got out the carpet shampooer and proceeded to shampoo over and over and over - so that may be why my shoulders are extreme knots and tender this morning. And because I'm in bed later these days I'm not falling asleep much before midnight - and the vicious circle continues. Been waking up with numb limbs again too - wonder if that is circulation or what? And then what comes first, the chicken or the egg - guess it doesn't really matter as long as I keep waking up every morning and so far so good on that front. Really trying to adjust the diet for the cholesterol thing - added soy milk, snacking on almonds, eating yougurt and blackberries every morning, and of course my fiberliscious bread with the ground flax seed - I can't believe it but I'm out of zuchini and I'm missing having that to snack on so have been snacking on oranges and grapes and bananas. Well, I still have some big zuchini, but I'm out of the snacking size. I saw a recipe in this months family circle for zuchini pickles - never heard of that before. but I'm sure they aren't as healthy as munching on the raw sliced zuchini - wonder what kinds of nutrients a zuchini actually has - may have to look that up. Well I obviously don't have a whole lot worth writing about today so I'll just stop.